onepassingnight | First Dream

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First Dream

[As far as the eye can see there's only a field of grass with a light wind blowing. It's freezing cold, but the boy laying back to look at the stars doesn't seem to notice. Or, if he does, he's used to it. He's been here for a while, slowly watching them blink out of existence one by one. Each time they do he reaches up, sadness written on his face - in the air around him. He can't stop it, he knows that, but he reaches anyway, trying as hard as he can. As if that will help. It doesn't and as each one slowly winks out, he seems to curl up on himself - bitter, hurt - lonely. It seems like hours, but soon, there's only a handful left.

Ventus shivers, rolling over and curling up - He's alone. He shouldn't have tried. How does he reach the light anyway? He can't. Sitting up, he pulls out the pieces of his wayfinder, face an open book of abandonment and betrayal. Hurt and anger.] ....I wish...

[And flings it away as far and hard as he can, uncaring where they fall.

Overhead, several more stars wink out, the rest shining just that much fainter.] I've never known you if you were just going to abandon me.

{{OOC: ~~Tags returned when I wake up. }}~~

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[Perhaps the saddest part is that she isn't even trying. This isn't her world, or even a world she knows; she doesn't really have any wish for it, good or bad.

It's the poison of her own world that leaks everywhere, taints everything, until sometimes it seems like she can't even avoid bringing it with her.]

You're pretty docile. [That, she can't help saying somewhat dismissively.]

I am...? [He frowns just a bit now, confused - and with a flicker of fear in his eyes. What is going on here? - Wait. Did he do something that he's not meant to? But it's his dream. He's meant to be safe here.. But - Maybe he'd punishing himself for screwing up training. Yea. Th-That has to be it. ] But - this how I always am. If I dreamed you up... you'd know that...

[But if he was, then why would he dream up a girl? And not Vanitas? gdi, his mind doesn't make any sense right now.]

You didn't dream me. [She says this immediately, almost talking on top of him. She won't compromise when it comes to any hint of her existence depending on someone else's will.]

[Of course Ventus flinches back at that - the tone more than anything. Shitshitshit! He's screwed something up - he knows it.] I- Sorry.

[Even in his dreams, he's just a screw up right now so he's not even going to try with the but it's my dream, no matter how much he wants to.] ... Yea. As you say...

[He's like a pathetic Jadeite without the snark. And probably still with Beryl around.

Mercury's going to walk all over him.]

Just who are you?

Ju-Just someone worth very little. [A smile, but it's so hollow, so lifeless.]

I'll decide that for myself. [The retort comes immediately.] Start with your name, Ok?

Alright. I-It's Ventus. V-Ven for short.

I'm Mercury. Call me by that.

[He brings out an irritating conflict in her; a part of her understands him and almost wants to be sympathetic. But most of her would rather freeze that part and cut it off; it makes him irritating even though he's done nothing wrong.]

If they abandoned you, why were you just sitting here? And if you've decided on making them sorry for it, what will you do?

Alright. Call me Ven, please. [It's a timid smile he offers though.]

... I'm not allowed out of my prison. [And trying to escape by now is a far off dream, something that he's not done in a while - two weeks, actually, not that Ventus knows of course.] And it's not that boring. I have Vanitas for company, and he's... nice.

Then, let's go out.

[She doesn't believe in prisons and being confined. Not for herself, and not for others she can still believe haven't committed crimes to deserve it.]

[Ven's only crime is that he's destined to make the ulitmate weapon - the Ki-blade - with his Darker half, quiet literally by them merging together. And the poor boy's dangerously unaware of that.

Wait - Leaving it -- no nonono. VERY bad idea. On Ven's side.] I- I can't. There's no way out and I'll be thrashed to an inch of my life again.

Then... [She turns her head, and her lips curve into an unpleasant smile.]

Just make sure the one to get hurt is him.

[She's followed her own words.

It didn't end as well as she's acting like it did.]

.... O-of course. [And back to that docile-agree-with-everything tone of voice. If he has an opinion on what she's said, it's unknown, completely.]

Speak properly without stuttering.

[She really can't stand those nervous mannerisms. Why should they bother her so much? ~~It has nothing to do with a quiet, docile teenage girl she's long since denied as part of herself.~~]

[A hastily nod - he's also shrinking back on himself.

This is his dream though, yet he feels even less in-control of it than ever.]

You won't do a thing to stop those thrashings until you can stop yourself shaking like a coward.

I'm sorry... [Dammit dammit dammit. What did he do to annoy her so much? It's not like with Vanitas - he doesn't know how to react to this, how to behave in a way that will get approval - and that, in his mind, is worrying and terrifying. ~~And in some closed off part of his mind, sickening.~~

Because to much disapproval tends to lead into pain one way or the other, or worse if he's really screwed things up.

Can he wake up yet? Ventus would rather take Vanitas in a foul mood over this unknown.]

[She's not even trying to scare him. Some day she'll learn, really.]

Being so frightened all the time, I don't plan to be like that.

Why not just strike back?

[Just like he said he planned to against the ones who abandoned him.]

[He doesn't answer for a while. She keeps asking him why he's not fighting back. It's not adding up and if this was a product of his own mind, then he'd be able to better gauge her, But he can't - unless it's from that part of himself - that small, hidden part that's still his strength of will...

Then he's show it he wasn't broken. It was better than nothing.] This... This is my dream. W-Why are you asking me this when I-I dreamed you - so un-unless you're me.. that part that's u-unbroken.. Wh-Why are you here?

[It was brave as he could get right now and even then - he wasn't as sure of himself as he displayed.]

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Who knows? Maybe the reason I'm here is to say something like that.

[It's one of her rare thoughtful moods.]

When you wake up, you'll remember it.

[And maybe be a little less like what she'd become if she ever gave in. If she's a model for him, he's a warning for her.]

Maybe. I'll wake up to Unversed and have to fight anyway. [It's said to flippantly, so off-handedly like it's normal.]

Or if I'm unlucky, Vanitas. [A shrug though. He kinda hopes not - getting woken up by him isn't as 'pleasant' as Unversed.]

[She sympathizes, in a way. Oh, he might not be quite as hard as Vanitas - an odd thought, if she knew it - but Kunzite is very harsh with her training as well.]

If you fight him, you'll become stronger until you surpass him.

Yea. Of course. [The smile wavers. Overcoming Vanitas...? He's not sure he can do that.]

[She certainly wouldn't stop trying. She's become more agreeable to Kunzite only because of their common goals. It may take some prodding, but she's still capable of defying him.]

Is that what you decided to want?

...hers comes from being evil. srsly. she doesn't get one til after this arc in canon -_-;

Poor ami.

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/sobs at muse.

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I have how this threads emo emo emo a bit of a backbone emo backbone oh hai thar not really caring

XD this is all too amazing

I know! And it's so this Ventus. /wants a Terra and an Aqua here now.

Maybe they'll come! <3

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