oo1 ☾ ❝my name is tsukino, usagi... ❞

[mooneternal]

Uwaaahh!! I'm going to be late! ( and out like a shot, comes usagi from her house. she's dressed in her new high school uniform, already trying to beat the clock in order to be on time. there's a piece of toast in her mouth as she zooms by -- and it's not hard to imagine a trail of dust behind her at the pace she's trying to make )

Not on the very first day! I can't believe no one woke me up!! I didn't even have time for breakfast! How am I supposed to make it through the morning like this? ( and she cringes, rounding another corner at top speed, and skids to a stop, coming to a realization. she slaps her forehead... ) Maah! I forgot my lunch too! ( a groan ) This is shaping up to be one of the worst first days of school ever...

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[secret_of_the_moon]

[He can't help to be shocked, when was the last time she appeared in his dreams? It had been years ago, she had vanished from his mind and dreams, leaving just him. It's surprising to see her again, even if it's not something bad...

Until she asks how does he know her name. That makes the blood leave his face as he pales, he has gone through this already.]

You... You don't know me.

[It's not a question but it's almost as if he has to say it outloud to be able to believe it.]

If I say that I'm Tsukuyomi... You'll say that you've never met me before, right?

[That... Hurts. And it's awkward, if he has to believe the words of that Ami he has met in dreams, then this girl, this Usagi is from another world. One where he doesn't exist, where she remained Usagi, or maybe even one where she never had to face the things that made him be. It's awkward.]

[mooneternal]

Tsukuyomi... kun. ( the name doesn't mean anything to her... but those eyes tell a different story. how many times in her life had she met someone for the first time, only to realize they were someone dear to her from the past? or even... a different dimension, a different world...

she shakes her head ) I'm sorry. I don't remember... ( and -- for some reason she can't explain, it makes her feel a little sad... )

[secret_of_the_moon]

[Maybe it's because he has said it so many times, because even his parents and Shingo say it, that he has ended believing it, that Usagi was someone separate from him, his twin sister who died, rather than just a part of his mind that vanished in nothingness. He liked Usagi, but he wasn't Usagi, he wasn't a girl, and it was only place for one of them. For him, Usagi existed only because others had created her, so once he confirmed that he wasn't Usagi, she stopped being there. When Luna came and made him transform, though, he couldn't help to wonder at times how would have Usagi been if it had been her instead of him the one who stayed.

And now she's again in front of him, and he knows it's a dream because it's impossible any other way for her to be there. But this Usagi doesn't know him, no, she said she didn't remembered, is there a difference? It's still sad.]

I see... I could tell you we know each other, or rather we knew each other and all, but I suppose you won't believe me.

[That Ami didn't and even now she refuses it.]

[mooneternal]

But... you seem familiar, somehow. ( she didn't want to have to be the one to let him down... especially when he looked so hopeful. and something about those eyes... it was almost as if she had stared into them a thousand times before. not the same way that mamo-chan's eyes captivated hers, but still... somehow so familiar ) You go to the Junior High, don't you? ( she perks up, guessing by the uniform she used to see daily -- ) Is that where we ran into eachother maybe?

[secret_of_the_moon]

Yeah... I go there. But we knew each other long before, when we were still in kindergarten, even before that actually. You look... Older than I would have expected you to be, is that a high school uniform?

[mooneternal]

Before kindergarten... ( she's not sure what exactly to say about that... but then, with the way that her friends have all entered her life -- she supposes it's not that far fetched to meet someone else... this feeling -- its like that... isn't it? )

That's right. ( she nods ) We all passed the entrance exams together! ( she seems to brighten at the topic change ) Ami-chan, Minako-chan, Mako-chan and I! Of course Rei-chan got the easy way out at her school... Ahhaha! I mean... you -- do you know them too, Tsukuyomi-kun?

[secret_of_the_moon]

[Even before he answers his expression betrays him, reacting at the names. He knows them, they are his friends, "his girls" as some classmates say. But they are her friends in this dream, where he is unknown. Or...]

I wonder if this is one of those dreams I've been having lately... Because for me, Ami-chan and the others are my friends.

[mooneternal]

Your friends? ( she pauses. doesn't that mean... she would have seen you with them? ) ... But that's... Wait! What do you mean 'dreams?'

[secret_of_the_moon]

Lately I've been having those dreams... Where people I have never met before appear, besides me participating in my dream. I have also found myself in dreams that weren't mine, together with someone else, as if I entered their dreams. And among those dreams I once met a Mizuno Ami that had long black hair and had never heard of me, she was different from the Ami I know when I'm awake, but she's still Ami.

[He talks in a distant tone, almost as if he's not really answering her. He looks at her once more after a moment. Could that be it? Could this Usagi not be just a dream of a real person? In a world where he never existed for some reason. Where it was always just Usagi, not Tsukuyomi. He doesn't tell her that, though, if it's not his Usagi, then she counts as an outsider all the same, even if she's still Usagi.]

I had a sister, you know, we were twins but she was always healthier than I was, so I often had to stay home while she went out. She died shortly after we started primary school.

[He shuts up and looks away, hesitant, almost afraid and unsure. Even if it's not his Usagi... Being rejected by Usagi, any Usagi, is a terrible thought.]