onepassingnight | Day 4-- Through The Looking Glass

[This is insane.]

Hey Roxas? I gotta tell you something… something important, okay?

I’m not what you think I am.

[This is wrong.]

You remember when you unlocked your heart to save Kairi? Well I do too.

[It has to be the world’s biggest joke yet, Roxas’ mouth set in a thin, pale line as his hands grip the keyblade, slashing into everything. Break it all, let it all go-

Shatter it. It wasn’t meant to exist.]

Yen Sid told you about Nobodies, right?

What would you do if you had one?

What would you do if it was me?

[An illusion, a fantasy playing on the most horrible of situations he can comprehend- confessing his existence. His lack of right to even having it, the concept behind his own birth, the thoughts and actions of so many others that have influenced Sora’s thinking.]

[Rolled up into one and reversed into something Roxas wouldn’t recognize if he hadn’t daydreamed this so many times, except he’s standing in the wrong role.]

Roxas.

[He’s the Nobody.]

I’m your Nobody.

[Not Sora.]

I figured you’d be angry; but I had to tell you. We’re friends, right?

[If only it was that easy. The first thing he did without even realizing it was to dash away that false image of Sora from his mind, and now- Roxas was taking his time. Letting out pent up frustration at the scenery, tearing up the earth, cutting down trees, watching as the world goes from beautiful to full of rips and tears, black spots flickering about the place as his subconscious struggles to hold its form. Let it break. Let it all break, this insult to everything he is, this insult to all the fears he has.]

[And most insulting of all was the fake heart, beating away in his chest for this one, any only, dream.]

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[She has very strong opinions on this sort of topic. Mercury faces Roxas directly.]

It's because you might not be there tomorrow that you should decide. Live the time you have how you want, and fight against that end you don't want to see.

Edited 2011-05-27 02:39 (UTC)

[Roxas is silent, though its clear he's thinking deeply upon what she's said. He wasn't meant to exist, and maybe he wouldn't, tomorrow- but he had a choice now.]

[He didn't want to be stuck thinking about his death forever.]

You're right. I guess-

[His hands clench.]

I know what I need to do now.

[It's exactly what she wants to shake him out of, that sense of futility, because it is useless once he decides it is and doesn't even fight. She tells herself this is entirely different from optimism. Determination, will; she likes those words better.

A crisp nod, perhaps approving.]

Then what are you planning? So you that you see a future you want, what will you do?

[The answer he gives isn't going to be in the style she expects, not at all. Its a decision, and a start- but there's far too much influencing him for one small talk to stem his current beliefs.]

I need to face up to the truth. And Sora does too.

After that, then maybe I'll have a future to plan out, but right now- [He bites his lip and thinks carefully, trying to understand what he's feeling, how to take that and say it out loud.]

I can't do anything if I'm stuck here wondering. I have to know.

[He might be surprised. The moment she knew something was missing, it became all about finding what that was.]

Maybe I also understand that.

[He is surprised. With the way she'd been pushing the issue of making a decision and fighting for himself, he had thought that such a thought would cause some derision, on her part.]

[Perhaps not.]

Thank you.

I'm not someone who should be thanked. [Whatever she may be, she is not that. She does not bring good, but darkness.]

And, I may have said that, but it doesn't mean you can spend forever. [Mercury makes a strong face and pose to underscore her words. And then, as if to confirm he truly hears what she's saying.] Understood?

[She may know his struggle, but she will always still push for more. Because she was always pushed for more, is always pushed for more.]

Edited 2011-05-28 13:22 (UTC)

[Roxas would beg to differ, but each to their own. He shrugs a little awkwardly, not quite sure how to respond to the varying ways in which Mercury portrays herself. Like she wants to help, but doesn't feel this help should be acknowledged.]

[In a way she reminds him of Riku.]

Understood. I'll do it soon.

[He and Sora would be on the road again soon. Wherever they next landed, that's where he'd tell him. A world they can both get lost in, away from each other if need be. He'd do it soon.]

[It's because nothing good comes from her. She knows that. Even if she tries, it becomes dark, twisted, distorted. And often, to be honest with herself, she doesn't try.]

You shouldn't expect it to be easy. [But this comes in less of harsh warning tone, because she has the feeling he already knows.]

Day 4-- Through The Looking Glass

jklfjdfd /sobs for bb brother

;A; /grabby hands

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geez I love these two <3 bed in a few but will be around tomorrow of course

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