second stake.

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[Buffy is sitting on an unweildy tower, looking out over the edge. This is where she died, and where Dawn almost had. It's a cloudy day and she wishes the rain would just fall and get it over with instead of taunting her with its heavy cumulus. She knows, logically, she could probably make the Sun come out, or even make the rain come, if it was what she wanted-- but she's sick of being in control. She wants the world back with its unpredictable and even sometimes cruel ways. She wants the real Earth beneath her and the real sky over her and all the messed up stuff in between. She wants to feel love and hate and trust and hurt. She wants her life back.

But she doesn't, all the same. Spike, her mom's death, Dawn.... So many things held a giant question mark, and things were good here. Great, even. She could be with Angel without fear, and she had made friends she could visit whenever she wanted. The only question she had left at the end of her long think-y process was simply, Was it more selfish to stay, or to go?]

Just go away. Get your own tower of feel-bad. [she murmurs when you approach, curling around herself.]

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[slayerpreferred.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure my thoughts are worth a penny, let alone a hundred whole yen.

[waterfell.livejournal.com]

I'll refuse to pay in the end if they're not.

[slayerpreferred.livejournal.com]

.. Thanks.

[waterfell.livejournal.com]

[You mean it's not nice to tease someone when they're down? Who knew.]

So let me be the judge of what's worth it.