onepassingnight | 001st Secret ☽ Born to be free

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001st Secret ☽ Born to be free

[The road is wide and long, losing itself in the horizon where land merges with the sky. The landscape keeps changing at a sickening speed, while the motor roars like a hungry lion. With the empty road ahead and behind, the car trunk filled with suitcases, a flaring sun above and the wind blowing strongly as the speed increases. It's a road trip, there's no doubt of it, though the goal of the trip may be something foggy in the mind, probably as that doesn't matter, the fun here is the trip itself after all.

Tsukuyomi smiles widely as he sits in the driver's seat. It's a dream, he knows it, only in a dream he would be able to drive and feel so well with himself, but he doesn't care. For once it's a dream where there's not even one trace of those nightmares he usually has, so he welcomes it happily. The car is a white colored two seats, enough space for just him and a companion, with the roof open to allow the wind and the sun to hit them directly, speeding through the road at a bit more than 120mph.

It's a cry for freedom. One of those moments of "feeling alive" for him. If only dreams could be real.]

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But you have! We see each other basically everyday at school!

[No back to this, please. Wait, he remembers something, he doesn't think he looks that different but maybe for her he does! Just as she looks different for him.]

Ah, I know! You haven't met me before today with this appearance, whatever I may look to you. Just like I have never before met an Ami-chan with black and long hair! But you're still Ami and I recognize the name, why can't you recognize mine?

[It wouldn't be the first time, which was why she'd already assumed he knew a form of her with blue hair. It doesn't tell her who he is, though.

It's partly unwillingness.]

It's because I've never seen you. If you know a 'different me', the one who met you is her.

That's what I'm saying, you have never seen me like this but I'm Tsukuyomi anyway!

[Wait, what...]

A 'different you'... But Ami is Ami, right? There aren't two Amis, I would have noticed. And Ami-chan never said she had a twin sister. Why would you have black hair and not blue hair though?

I've never once met someone by that name.

[She has to hold on to that. Because if there's someone who was close to her, who knew her, like he claims, and if she's forgotten that completely...

What else has she forgotten?]

[But that's impossible! Tsukuyomi is obviously disheartened by that.]

But I know your name... I still remember your name. Why have you forgot mine?

That's easily answered: I never knew it. Stop making a scene.

But you did! We know each other, how could I know those things about you? It's not as if you go around telling people about yourself, or about the board you and your mom keep to communicate when you can't see each other!

[Very few people indeed have visited Ami's house to know about that. Usagi had been there before. Kino Makoto had been there before.

But that was before, and this guy isn't them anyway. Right?]

I don't know how, but if I find out it's something I don't want, you'll be hurt.

What the- do you think I'm some kind of stalker or what? I know it because I have gone to your house, we went together to study because I just wouldn't concentrate in the library and my house was like a lion's den and you didn't like it!

[Stalker - or an enemy.]

I don't have study partners. It would slow down my own progress and waste my time on them.

[As if she was never the girl always willing to help the others with their homework and studying.]

As if you were never willing to help others with homework and studies if they asked you to! Fine, maybe we weren't study partners, it's not as if I'm intelligent enough to be even close to your rhythm and everything. But you were my tutor! You helped me study and thanks to you I even managed to get more than a mere sufficient!

[No, all she remembers now are those circling vultures who never cared at all except for the chance to raise their grades. Why be willing to help that? She hadn't been then, and she's not now.

It's the people she did help that she's denying.]

Don't talk nonsense. I have my own work to focus on. They can take responsibility for themselves - if they have the ability to succeed.

I'm not talking nonsense, it's you who is talking nonsense! Now you not only have forgot me but you have forgot the things you do? What else have you forgotten, Ami?

I remember everything.

[She's had years to convince herself this is the truth, that the hazy glimpses of something else were the lie because they never matched the reality in front of her.]

Then why don't you remember what I'm talking about?! And don't say "because I've never met you before" again, you have!!

[Her look is cold, as if she sees right through him instead of seeing him at all.]

You're deluded.

[Yes. That's much easier. He's some deluded person who's seen the shitennou, or the up and coming brilliant mind Mizuno Ami, on television or something before now, and he's become obsessed, thinking they know each other and have some sort of relationship.]

The hospital will offer you the proper care. You should go there.

[That hurts. It hurts more than it should, because it's not the first time he has heard that kind of things being told to him. But never before have they been told to him just because he knew someone.]

No, you're in denial. Because that's all you're doing, saying "no, no, no" even though you know there's no possible way for me to know those things without it being true what I say.

[There's nothing else to say. Ami sits rigidly in the passenger's seat, in a frigid silence for a long moment before she makes her choice.

She calmly reaches over and opens the door. She gets out of the car.

There's no way to stay here. She knows perfectly well she doesn't know him, and she's gone past that driving curiosity and into discomfort and even anger. If they stay much longer like this, she will probably hurt him.

Is she trying to avoid that?]

Edited 2012-03-07 13:29 (UTC)

Wha- What are you doing?! Hey, where do you plan to go? We're stuck here, aren't we?

[He doesn't move from the car, thought, despite all the arguing this is just so strange... Maybe she's not really Ami after all and is an enemy trying to unsettle him in this strange and confusing way.]

It's better if we find our own way. I don't have any intention of helping you, or needing your help.

[He's right about one part, though she doesn't know it herself yet: She's an enemy.]

But if this is really a trap and we both are trapped, separating wouldn't help, would it?

If it's a trap, I'll kill the person who set it.

[This is said bluntly, without apology, as if it's the only possible response. She eyes the boy very clearly.]

Remember that.

[If she finds out it's him... well, she's just stated the consequences.]

I'm not who set this up. I'm just a normal person I don't have any special powers or anything anyway! And if I wanted to set up a trap why would I erase your memories regarding myself?

[Tsukuyomi crosses his arms and pouts, still unsure of what to do. He doesn't want to leave Ami but... He's definitively getting tired himself of being insulted, specially by her. If it was someone he cared about a little less it wouldn't matter.]

[Her eyes narrow. Since when were they talking about special powers...? He's just said something revealing after all. Ami stands still, not too far from the car yet.]

Your reasons don't matter. It's the results that do.

[Since the moment they talked about this being a dream or an illusion? Tsukuyomi just rolls his eyes.]

Fine, be that way. I know I'm the one who's right and you'll realize it yourself once we're out of here or awake or whatever.

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