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Primo ([personal profile] promotedpawn) wrote in [community profile] onepassingnight2012-02-09 08:04 pm

002nd Promotion ♛ Shall we dance?

[In the Great Hall of a palace made of crystal, gold and white marble, there's a party, a big one with many guests who mingle with each other, dance, talk, laugh and eat, enjoying themselves. Everyone is in their best suits and dresses, even you, unexpected guest, will find yourself perfectly dressed for the occasion, the only difference between you and them is that them all wear masks covering their faces completely or partially. Even the musicians, at a corner of the gigantic room, cover their faces as they play music without rest or pause. The music is delicious and keeps tempting you to dance. The delicate food spread all over the tables at each side of the room also invite you to take a bite or take a drink, it doesn't matter how much you eat or drink, the food never runs out neither do the drinks.

The ceiling raises high over your head, higher and higher than your eyesight can reach, point at which it melts into a nocturne sky full of sparkling stars that shimmer and dance on their own private dance floor. No matter where you look the large windows, that show to a garden full of bright crimson and silver flowers, are all closed. Yet there must be a door or a window open as to explain the natural present of those golden butterflies and brightly red cicadas that circle around in the air, flying everywhere but not bothering anyone. Then again, they aren't exactly normal insects, are they? There are no butterflies or cicadas made of golden or red light that burst into small harmless sparkles the moment you poke at them. But it doesn't matter, why should it?

Come and relax uninvited guest. No one care where you're from or why you're here so don't worry yourself with those things either. Just relax and enjoy yourself in this dreamlike party. Who knows how long will it last?]
repudiate: (soul comes a gentle coercion)

[personal profile] repudiate 2012-02-09 09:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[ She does spot him standing there, but their eyes only meet for a brief moment before she can already see him turning back again, almost directly blending into the crowd again with that mask on. It puts her in a difficult mental position though, since it means that she has to be the one to approach him this time. It's such a simple thing to do, and yet she can't help but make herself hesitate for the briefest moment, moving a step before stopping again. Their last encounter was.. well, putting it as 'awkward' would be a major understatement, and thinking about that something deters her from the idea of moving to approach him. But another part does want to see him and talk to him instead of standing here alone.

So for a few moments she just stands there, but then her body makes the decision before her mind does. Ange quickly patters forward into the crowd while trying to make sure to not trip over her dress or something like that, her head quickly glancing around to spot him again. It's more difficult when suddenly all masks and dresses and suits seem to look alike, but after a few moments of.. worry, almost, she does manage to spot him, making her way through the crowd towards him.

Ange wants to speak up, but her throat almost feels tight, so.. instead she taps him on the shoulder, considering she spotted him from the back. ]
repudiate: (until i realised that)

[personal profile] repudiate 2012-02-09 11:27 pm (UTC)(link)
[ There's a definite moment of surprise at the movement, not only in her expression but in her own movement as well, almost as if she lightly jerks away from him just from the surprise, but.. when that brief second passes, she relaxes a little even if there's still something slightly tense. But she doesn't protest, doesn't resist, doesn't push his grasp and hold away or reject him. Instead she does move her hand up to his shoulder and let him guide her in the dance.

It's easier without words at first either way, easier to just take it one step at a time even if it looks slightly awkward if they are just quietly dancing there with still some slight hint of tension in the air. At first Ange looks up at his mask, but the eyes are so clearly visible that instead she moves her gaze down to avoid his'. After all, taking this one step at a time is already difficult enough, and just them touching like this is already quite a step.

It's probably better if they don't talk at first either way, she figures, instead just trying to match his steps in the dance as he guides her. If she says the wrong thing, it might just ruin everything in this moment, just like last time. That moment she had hesitated because of her feelings too and said things near-carelessly, being trapped against the glass with his hand on her neck as if to choke her.. Somehow she can still feel that touch when she thinks about it and it seems scarier than anything else she has ever experienced. But right now his touch is different, more gentle, the way she imagined it would have been with Keiichi in Luceti if she had gotten the chance.

But with all those thoughts she still doesn't say anything, instead silently following the dance. ]
repudiate: (and all my bones began to shake)

[personal profile] repudiate 2012-02-10 07:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[ She actually doesn't say anything for a long while, just following him to keep dancing with her in silence for some time. She isn't a great dancer, but he's the one leading either way, so matching his steps is something even she can do.

But eventually, after what nearly seems like an eternity, she stops instead, taking her hands off him, away from him. No, going on like this isn't fair, it isn't right - 'you go once more to that middle point that serves for nothing but hurt everyone', that's what he had said the last time around right before things got worse, right? That space where she doesn't say anything because she doesn't know what to say, doesn't know what she wants, because she feels scared and lonely even with him by her side since she pushes him away.

She manages to force her gaze up, to meet his eyes, that golden stare. But seeing just those, just a sign of the wizard, that isn't right either, so.. slowly she reaches out, her hands moving to his face to take off his mask, revealing his face. She lets the mask drop to the floor unceremoniously, but keeps her hand near his face before just downright putting them on the sides of his face to touch it, that face just like Keiichi's.

'So, now, what do you live on for?'

That's what Ami had asked her, right? There wasn't anything worth living for, so why didn't she just die? It would be so easy, just like that night, right? But no, there's still something she's clinging on to. Something she still wants rather than death, but the one stopping her from that is.. herself, isn't it..? ]


... Sorry. [ It's almost said a bit awkwardly, especially considering she had been quiet even during these actions just now. Part of her feels like it's inappropriate to keep her hands there on the sides of his face, but it would be too awkward to slowly remove them now either way, even though she does try a little. ] I'm.. probably just an unexpected guest here, right?
repudiate: (but your tongue is getting blacker too)

[personal profile] repudiate 2012-02-10 11:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Even if they're unexpected guests who won't listen to you? [ It was on that note that their last conversation ended, after all, and with how much she's been thinking about it of course she would remember. The kind of tone that accompanies it clearly suggests though that it's not said in mockery of him, but rather in mockery of herself, because part of her can at least understand her own faults. Even if she can recognize his' too, that near-choking hold that was nothing like what Keiichi would have done, she thinks, a sign of how he, too, changed.

But she still doesn't remove her hands, maybe especially not since she can feel him leaning against them, not even as she speaks on. ]


But what I really wanted to say was.. I couldn't stop thinking about it. About you, about last time. [ Although the latter is accompanied by a whole slew of feelings she can't quite place in proportion to each other - guilt, fear, pain. ] When I was awake, when there was another chase between Amakusa and I and the Sumaderas, even then it kept haunting through my head, up to a point where even Amakusa kept noticing my absentmindedness.

That's how I realised.. you were right about one thing. [ She swallows, and it's getting harder to keep facing those golden eyes while admitting it. ] It's because of my indeciviseness that everyone gets hurt. Because I don't make the choice. [ Because, no matter what he thinks, she hasn't fully rejected him. Even if the fear has been there, the love is there too and the two keep mixing and confusing her - even if she's at a point where she thinks one of the two wins, the next moment the other comes forward strongly. ]
Edited 2012-02-10 23:58 (UTC)
repudiate: (let me sink in the silence)

[personal profile] repudiate 2012-02-11 02:47 pm (UTC)(link)
... And better sooner than later, right?

[ At least, she guesses it's what he's thinking or would prefer, since she wants to be able to just make it too but again she lacks that final step, that final step she's so bad at taking without practically being shoved or forced into taking it. And thinking of it as the guy she loved rather than the fear of the sorcerer that relived at being pinned and nearly actually choked the other day (or rather, night), he does deserve the answer, the decision. If he's been waiting this long just for her.. She's not the only lonely one, he must have been at least somewhat in pain too like this, all this time. ]
repudiate: (no more dreaming of the dead)

[personal profile] repudiate 2012-02-11 10:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[ But even if he's already waited for a long time, adding more time to it always hurts, no matter what. She knows that much, okay. But instead she's quiet for a few moments, turning to her own thoughts, before bending over to pick up his mask she let fall to the ground earlier, idly playing with it a little with her hands before she speaks up again, looking at him. ]

Then.. I'd like to ask a last request of you.

[ Even if she's already done enough selfish things to ask for more now, but, just this.. ]

... Back in Luceti.. I was sent away from that place too early, but surely you had some plan to tell me directly about your feelings sometime, right? It was right before Christmas, and we were supposed to go out together that day, so.. were you going to tell me then? [ a deep breath. ] Even if it's been a long time, surely you would not forget that if it was something that important to you, so what I'm asking is.. please tell me.

What Keiichi-- [ she shakes her head lightly to herself. ] What you were going to say to me. How you were going to say it. Just.. exactly like that.
Edited 2012-02-11 22:15 (UTC)
repudiate: (and all my bones began to shake)

[personal profile] repudiate 2012-02-12 01:57 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It's 'last' since it's the last before everything will change. Because she's doing this to herself on purpose, since she knows she will have to make the choice when she hears all that, the things she should have heard that day but never did. 'No turning back'.. yeah, there's no turning back now alright. Not when she's already made him wait this long, not when he's saying those words just like he would have that day, right from his heart.

Words don't come, no matter whether she waits in silence or not for a few moments. But there's a much easier option than talking, trying to pick words to put everything she thinks and feels into them, and it seems even more easy while she already had her hands on the side of his face right before this to start with, as if she just has to return to that.

The mask is once again dropped on the ground, and instead she moves her hands quickly back onto the sides of his face. Before giving him the chance to react or maybe realise what exactly is happening she's already moving closer, putting her lips to his' and drawing him in with her grasp.

Even if it's different from what it should have been that day, even if both of them don't have wings anymore, even if both of them and especially him have changed...

She kisses him, and it's not anything out of just fear of pity or any other emotion (except maybe slight guilt, just slightly, for making him wait) except for the love she never was able to express before, not fully, since she kept holding back during the important moments. There's something slightly desperate in it though, as if she's trying to hold onto the happiness she's trying to grasp tightly in all of it. ]
repudiate: (i won't leave you anymore)

[personal profile] repudiate 2012-02-12 10:28 pm (UTC)(link)
[ There's the slightest surprised gasp escaping her when she's pulled close, even during the kiss, but it's merely surprise, nothing bad. In fact, the fact they're so close only faciliates the kiss itself, pulls her closer into that too even though she feels like she's almost drowning already with the passion and desperation that comes from his kiss, even though it's natural considering the circumstances.

But she still bears those feelings of his as much as she can, if not just to make the kiss carry on for as long as they can. But she's only human, she needs to breathe, so once she feels herself starting to get out of breath she pulls away a little, still lingering close to his face but enough to be able to draw in air.

She could feel it even in the kiss, especially in the kiss. He's been waiting so long, this long, just for her. Part of it was her fault, due to her fear and indecision, and she couldn't even help the rest of it since it was just the nature of all these worlds that it was so difficult to find her, just her, out of all the Anges. She's not one to easily cry, but she feels her eyes sting and before she even realises it tears roll down her cheeks for him, even though she's happy as well. ]


... I'm home. [ Isn't that what he said last time they met? That she should be the one to start 'returning home', right..? ] Sorry that I took so long.
repudiate: (take the shade from the canvas)

[personal profile] repudiate 2012-02-13 03:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Ange wasn't already paying attention to the surroundings anymore either way. Normally she never would have kissed someone in public like that, or cried in public, but it was difficult to not completely forget about that when she was faced with all of this. The fact that they're now somewhere with just the two of them makes comfort settle in even more though, the realisation they're away from prying eyes, and she moves her hands to wrap them around him in return too, even if she does have to stand on tip toes slightly in this position. But she doesn't mind if it's just for the sake of them embracing each other like this.

And he looks more human than she's ever seen him, more and more like she remembers him, even if it's overly emotional right now. And he's crying now after all the waiting and pain, so she can't help but want to reassure him slightly at least in return for causing part of it, so her tone turns warm. ]


It's okay now. I'm right here. And I won't leave, I'll be with you as much as I possibly can. [ As much as she can, of course, since there's still that barrier that she can only see him like this, while she's sleeping. ] You don't have to be alone or hurt anymore, because I'll be right there for you at your side when you need it.

[ She squeezes him as much as she can while in this position, her tone dropping to a whisper. ]

I love you.
repudiate: (from the roots of my soul)

[personal profile] repudiate 2012-02-18 08:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[ She moves just a little in his grasp, enough to be able to see his face again and hold her hand up to it again, touching the side of his face as if to make sure that all of this really is real. ]

I've missed you too..

[ As if she could even fall in love with anyone else by now. Even if they can only meet like this, in dreams, then that's enough for her. Even if anyone else might call her crazy. She's just incapable of loving anyone but him by now, no matter what. And staying here with him like this, being held by him.. even though it's only a few moments, it seems like an eternity either way. ]

I promise to come see you like this as much as I can. So you won't just have to watch me all the time, since then I can see you in return as well. [ Then they can hold each other like this. ] And.. I won't love anyone except you.

[ It's not a promise, but a fact. ]
repudiate: (i won't leave you anymore)

[personal profile] repudiate 2012-02-18 10:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Should be obvious already? I wonder, are you sure you can hold yourself back with someone looking and acting just like me standing right in front of you at other times?

[ It's obviously just a joke, though, since she knows he wouldn't do that - not after he's been searching for this long just for her, even when she didn't accept him as quickly he was still faithful to her, so.. she smiles. Partly from happiness, but at the same time it also indicates she's clearly joking about it. It feels strange, though, to be this openly happy, like she hasn't in a long time. ]
repudiate: (so many things were left unsaid)

[personal profile] repudiate 2012-02-18 11:04 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It's not too difficult to figure out what he means, though. He obviously knows more about her world too by now with his status, so.. he must have known what happened to her in the past too, and in that case it's not difficult at all to figure out what he means. Yes, seeing that and not acting must have been painful to him, or in general just to see an Ange around who didn't even recognize him the way she did, as the person she loves..

She moves her arms up until she's clinging to him around the neck. ]


You've suffered so much.. For my sake, too. [ Ah, the list of stuff she has to repay him for is just growing even after Luceti, isn't it.. ]

But.. you said you would watch me even while I'm awake, right? So.. [ ... ] Back in Luceti, Bernkastel already told me about something that would happen a while after I got back. Nothing has happened so far, but when it does.. don't watch it if it will just hurt you too, okay? I wouldn't want that.
repudiate: (i've been hurt before)

[personal profile] repudiate 2012-02-26 05:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Then instead you want to come running in like some kind of Prince Charming on a white horse to save me?

[ She just presents it as a slight joke like that, not letting her gaze leave his. There's a little more behind it though, since.. would she mind it, letting him save her? In a way she's always much too stubborn to ask for help, since it makes her feel too vulnerable, too weak, but if it's him.. would something like that be alright after all..? ]

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