findmyownreason: (come to the end)
Cloud Strife ([personal profile] findmyownreason) wrote in [community profile] onepassingnight 2012-04-05 02:57 pm (UTC)

Cloud doesn't rush but he doesn't let himself get distracted by some of the more interesting meshes of cityscape either. He's not going to underestimate how quickly a kid can get into trouble in his dreams and this one seems to have a knack for it's that's a bit wilder than most shared dreams he's been in before. Maybe it's the kid's tension in the dream or maybe it's his own but his hackles are already rising as he comes to the edge of the cliff he's on and looks down to the tiny island of asphalt below.

It seems - tinier than he remembers.

And then his eyes focus on the blue of Shinra uniform and -

And he takes a couple steps back. Because that's him. That's him in that trooper uniform and he doesn't have to look twice to double check. It hits him in the center of him like a hammer blow and he sits down, blue eyes a little wide.

He's - dreaming. Himself? Or - himself is dreaming - him? How can he be double dreaming? Or is he just dreaming he's a wolf dreaming about himself as a Shinra grunt?

Except - this doesn't feel like his dream. It's got the same feeling other dreams have had when they belong to someone else.

His shaggy head comes down and his eyes narrow as he twists it over in his thoughts. Because there's the uncomfortable shiver of 'I'm not really me' through him and he knows he's past that and he's really himself and he's not a mimic or an imagination and yet -

Tifa would remind him who he is. She's his touchstone. She'd be able to tell him he wasn't just someone else's dream dreaming he was real. Except - she's not here. And what if he's just dreamed her into his life that isn't real - ?

No. No, dammit, no! He IS real. He's already been through this. He fought it and he came out on the other side and he's NOT a figment of his imagination or a copy pretending to be real. Whoever that is below, it's not him.

He still has to shake himself as he gets back to his feet and there's a hesitation in his paws as he walks back to the edge to look down again. What the hell is he looking at?

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