After everything he's seen and everything that happened, and she knows many of his struggles, John has hope. It makes a part of her rage with jealousy, because she hasn't been able to hold on like that; but she pushes that thought down. Mercury grows quiet in thought.

"Even if I wanted something to work out," she confesses, "I never thought it really could." It went for her friends, too; wanting to think they'd come together but knowing it was hopeless.