"I owe them both. It's my fault they're dead."

Not exactly a light subject and not something he'd usually talk about. He's at the end of things though and what used to be a mild gnawing inside him has taken over a lot more of his life now.

"Now I see them in my dreams more than I see the people I know that are still alive." He's no shrink but even he thinks that's probably a bad sign. With a quiet exhale, he shakes his head, running fingers through the hair at the back of it. "Even in my dreams, Zack won't let me apologize to him though."