[he's been afraid to lose her completely. During Meteor, they'd all still felt her there with them, even after... after the City. He wanted her to go on, find whatever peace came after... but he'd been afraid of it too. That... loss of everything you were when the Lifestream ate you.
He knew he wasn't supposed to look at it that way... but he'd been lost in mako too often to view anything made of it as less than malevolent. Or, at the very least, uncaring and careless.
Aerith should have had more time. She should have been able to fly on an airship and grow her flowers in the sun and visit the spots on Gaia they'd been to but she hadn't been with them to see. She'd deserved to have longer to laugh.
If he'd been faster. Stronger. Smarter.
If he'd been able to be the protector she'd thought he was.
His blue eyes had sunk but they flick back up to her face at her words, searching behind them for what she was really saying. He can't touch her, afraid to have his hand go through her and make her disappear but the emotion makes his voice, as soft as it is, rough at the edges and the honesty is heart deep in his blue eyes as they focus on the green of hers.]
You never need a reason, Aerith. I always want you to come.
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He knew he wasn't supposed to look at it that way... but he'd been lost in mako too often to view anything made of it as less than malevolent. Or, at the very least, uncaring and careless.
Aerith should have had more time. She should have been able to fly on an airship and grow her flowers in the sun and visit the spots on Gaia they'd been to but she hadn't been with them to see. She'd deserved to have longer to laugh.
If he'd been faster. Stronger. Smarter.
If he'd been able to be the protector she'd thought he was.
His blue eyes had sunk but they flick back up to her face at her words, searching behind them for what she was really saying. He can't touch her, afraid to have his hand go through her and make her disappear but the emotion makes his voice, as soft as it is, rough at the edges and the honesty is heart deep in his blue eyes as they focus on the green of hers.]
You never need a reason, Aerith. I always want you to come.