[ To have that feeling back. To not be alone. She sorts through the possible answers, her eyes distant. The various degrees of truth. It only takes a second to decide. She had already decided before coming, really, but sometimes ... sometimes it was tempting to be weak. ]
Do I need a reason besides wanting to see you? Though I guess I should have called ahead, huh.
[ She won't lie, but she won't explain everything. Because it's now that the slow process that began with her death nears completion; now that "Aerith" the flower girl is returning to the Planet. She may continue to still exist within the Lifestream, but solely as a Cetra. This (breakdown) change is natural, and if there is a difference between memories she wants to keep and memories she needs to keep, if Aerith the flower girl and Aerith the Cetra are two different people, that's what is best for the Planet, and best for the people the flower girl has loved.
It still scares her.
She thinks it will scare Cloud even worse. And he doesn't need any more weight ("shilly shally, dilly dally") to put on his own shoulders, and she wants (needs?) to keep his heart safe, to protect this fragile dream from dark thoughts. ]
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Do I need a reason besides wanting to see you? Though I guess I should have called ahead, huh.
[ She won't lie, but she won't explain everything. Because it's now that the slow process that began with her death nears completion; now that "Aerith" the flower girl is returning to the Planet. She may continue to still exist within the Lifestream, but solely as a Cetra. This (breakdown) change is natural, and if there is a difference between memories she wants to keep and memories she needs to keep, if Aerith the flower girl and Aerith the Cetra are two different people, that's what is best for the Planet, and best for the people the flower girl has loved.
It still scares her.
She thinks it will scare Cloud even worse. And he doesn't need any more weight ("shilly shally, dilly dally") to put on his own shoulders, and she wants (needs?) to keep his heart safe, to protect this fragile dream from dark thoughts. ]