Peter will always, and forever more, believe there's something wrong with himself. Starting from the time he nearly took out New York, to the loss of Nathan, if there wasn't something wrong with him, then he'd undeniably be able to do more. Even Adam at one time in his life, told him they had to save Nathan because of what he'd done and Peter always took every word, every thought to heart, no matter how hard he tried not to. So how was he supposed to believe that if Adam left him, it wasn't also entirely his own fault.
But when he asked for an explanation, maybe he should have specified that he didn't want it to be about himself. He didn't want to hear about the reasoning behind his actions untangled, judged, laid out before him as if he needed to look. And the last thing he wants, is to hear that Adam did this out of some misled idea that it was to protect his feelings. Because he's terrified he might actually believe it and he's tired of lies.
Peter feels enough like an idiot on a regular basis because of his own emotions, he doesn't like the reminder from other people. Even from Claire it was hard to take, but from Adam it was a whole other ball game. The other man knew him far too well and it still got under his skin.
Right now, he can't look at Adam anymore, because he doesn't want to be read like a book. "My family does a good enough job tearing itself apart." Peter sounds suddenly bitter, though the emotion is strangely not directed towards Adam. Still poking at the sand, he's pulled far away. "And I don't need someone to start trying to protect my feelings."
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But when he asked for an explanation, maybe he should have specified that he didn't want it to be about himself. He didn't want to hear about the reasoning behind his actions untangled, judged, laid out before him as if he needed to look. And the last thing he wants, is to hear that Adam did this out of some misled idea that it was to protect his feelings. Because he's terrified he might actually believe it and he's tired of lies.
Peter feels enough like an idiot on a regular basis because of his own emotions, he doesn't like the reminder from other people. Even from Claire it was hard to take, but from Adam it was a whole other ball game. The other man knew him far too well and it still got under his skin.
Right now, he can't look at Adam anymore, because he doesn't want to be read like a book. "My family does a good enough job tearing itself apart." Peter sounds suddenly bitter, though the emotion is strangely not directed towards Adam. Still poking at the sand, he's pulled far away. "And I don't need someone to start trying to protect my feelings."