"Why would you want to know more," Kanda muttered, letting her go as he walked around the empty pits looking for the one he had come out from, "the past shouldn't matter anymore. I'm not who I used to e and I've accepted that. I don't know everything but things I know I don't want to."

A nine year old shouldn't have to endure what being desperately in love felt like. A nine year old didn't have to endure the pain of death. It was unfair, no one deserved to be punished like this- to have something ripped from you and then reanimated. He felt fake, like a cheat. He was angry at the order for ruining his life but it wasn't all that bad now, was it? He had his own life and he wanted to keep it.

"What if what you find isn't what you wanted at all? I'm not saying people change for the best but I just think the past should stay in the past."